Let me start by saying I am so sorry for your loss. We all have to grieve in some way. (I'm sure sick of hearing that). My Daddy passed away on July 4th,2012. I still can't handle it. I miss him dearly but from what others have told me...we must honor them by remembering the good times and moving on. I can't do it myself but I sure hope you can. All my love and prayers to you and yours.