Ruthann I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I feel connected to all that are going through this loss as I lost my beautiful wife just 14 weeks ago today. I have no advice other that it is a hard road to go down alone so please reach out to those that have done it or are doing it as they are the only ones that truly understand.
Hi Ruthann ... I am sorry you have to come to this forum, but so happy you did find it as it sure saved me through many bad times since my husband Ernie passed away April, 2011 of pancreatic cancer. There were times I didn't think I'd make it, but this wonderful group of people got me through it. You can express yourself without fear of judgment and we've all been where you are in grief so please feel you have friends here and post.