it sounds to me that you were like a parent to him and you did many of the things i did with my son john. I got to the point where i did nto know what to do with him. he was skipping school and smoking weed all the time. any time i found him with weed i grounded him. it seemed as though he was grounded almost all the time. the last week he was grounded but still found a way to do drugs. he skipped school and i did nto know about it until the last day he was alive. he got suspended again but he was already high that day and i did not recognize it. he came home and went to sleep. a little while later i talked to him about everything but he had areally hard time waking up so i let him sleep. i had a bad feeling something was wrong but did nothing about it. he never woke up. so i understand my guilt is strong. i know i did not make him take the drugs or even know that he did take them but i knew there was something wrong that night and did nothing about it. this is why i feel so guilty. ok i only had a gut feeling something was wrong but still. guilt is the second worst thing about all of this. the first is the loss of our loved ones.