Savannah, I am sorry to hear about the death of your boyfriend. Love is love & titles such as boyfriend, fiancee, or husband are just not that important in my opinion. It's awful that young people think using drugs is o.k.- like everybody does it & it's no big deal. It is a big deal! You never know how your body might react or you might get so wasted you don't realize it & keep going. It breaks my heart. My ex-husband had emotional/mental problems & gave in to drugs & alcohol which forced me & my kids to leave. I worried all the time that he might OD or commit suicide, so I can relate somewhat. You are young & I hope you learn & grow from this terrible experience. You have the unique ability to reach out to other young people and share your experience that might help others. God bless you & best wishes for peace today & always. Christy