I am so sorry for your lost Sharon, I too lost my husband unexpectedly on June 2, 2010
He had a cerebral hemorrage
and all I do is cry . It really sucks.....i had to learn to do
bills, too.....he took care of everything !
Just wanted to tell you that you are not alone.
I am so sorry to hear that Sharon. My husband lost his mom June 2nd, and has changed so much... I hardly know him. He has pushed me away and does not as much as kiss me good-bye any more. You had mentioned how you have pushed people out of your life as well. He is back to work and has been functioning...OK I guess; the best he can. I feel so heart broken since I thought our relationship could with hold any crises that came along. I now realize... loseing someone you love, turnes you into a whole different person. My mother died when I was 14 years old and I thought... how will I ever be able to make it through the day with out her. As years went by... it became easier ,but I will never forget her and can still remember... after many years, the feelings I felt during the dealth of mom. I am here if you need a someone to talk to. Keep the faith!
Help...I'm going crazy and have managed to push everyone that cares about me away....now I am alone...no job or friends or realitives ...My husband died at the age of 52, June 24 2009 from a sudden massive heart attack on his way to work...I got that telephone call from the hospital to come and when my daughter and I arrived he had already passed. We were married for 24 years...I am becoming an alcholic ...It has been a little over a year and it's getting worse. I moved out of my house and bought another house (smaller) and was doing fine but had trouble with my 22 year old daughter and now she is moving out of the house and on her own...I can't handle her or anyone else as matter of fact I have even pushed all my friends away...I went back to work for 5 weeks but just quit this past thursday...I couldn't handle the job it was to hard...cold calling for timeshare...so now I'm seeking another job. I think I'm going crazy and want to know when this fear will leave me and what do I do without him, he took care of everything and now I'm doing it all alone....with my toy poodle Nikki. That's all I have left and I am greatful for her she is a comfort and does give me sanity at this point.