Thanks Sharon for the words of encouragement. I hope life is treating you well and you are taking it one day at a time. Please keep in touch.

Thank you Sharon for your kind words. Yes, we can overcome the grief period but I don't believe we will ever overcome the loneliness. Helping others is a good remedy to forget ourselves and help those who are less fortunate that we are.
Keep trusting the Lord and continue to put your faith in him and He will see us through this difficult time in our lives.
God bless you.
Royal

I have a rememberence urn so I guess Barry kept his promise also. His kids came from out of state to spread his ashes. I couldn't do it. I did have a memorial service for him though. I have his urn in between my parents urns.

he promised he wouldn't ever leave me. I logically know his body gave out but emotionally I feel he broke his promise. How do you stop feeling so alone? Even if there are your friends and family you are alone.

I know I will get through this eventually. Barry was my whole life and my soulmate. I had a crying spell this morning that left me weak. I don't know how to live without him. He was everything to me.

Sleep what's that. I am kinda starting to get longer stretches but that only adds up to 4 hours a night but I can sleep all day long but I cant do that to the kids. I dont know what all that is up there but I just tried to up-load a picture. Going to try and sleep now. I like to put pillows behind me to make it feel like he is next to me:(

Thank you for the words of encougagement. I have a very full plate and I never know when it will hit me.

I am going to go. I am hoping that my son and the baby do not want to go because of how anxious they make me. I would be a nervous wreck the whole time. I want to relax and enjoy myself. I hate having such anxieties. And then I feel guilty because I can't be around them but so much without having an attack.

Maybe then I will try it. Just not this weekend with Bryan and the baby being there and it being my anniversary weekend. Shoot I might just want to drown my sorrows in a bottle of wine and good anxiety pills! lol. Not really. Did I tell you that my daughter asked me to come to Richmond on Sunday for a wine festival? That will be nice and will keep me out of the house all day. If I stay there, I might go a little crazy.