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Sleeping, Reliving the Last Hours, and Dreaming.

Posted on January 2, 2010 at 2:39pm 1 Comment 0 Likes

My Mom died on Valentine's Day '09 and for about a month now, I'm reliving the last hours of her life, especially before I fall asleep. It seems that I even go into very vivid dreams of her when I am asleep. I've been advised that I should think of Mom as she was as her vibrant self and our happy moments on earth instead. But they too make me cry because I miss her so much. My Mom was in so much pain (even though she had her medicine) that you couldn't touch her even to the point of changing… Continue

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At 9:32pm on December 30, 2009, Jackie said…: Thank you. It's funny that you say to do Word Searches because that is exactly what I was thinking of doing! I know my mom was sufferring so much at the end and it is making it a little easier to handle knowing she is no longer in pain. Since your mom died of the same cancer, I am sure you understand what I mean. I will never forget the last 5 minutes and how she was struggling to breathe, and telling her it was ok to go and I meant it. I keep reminding myself of that and how she is at peace. It's still so hard to believe, though, that I will never get to see her again. Since you are almost 11 months in to your grieving process, my guess is that you still miss her every day. I think I've already figured that out....it will never get easier, I will always miss her, and my job is really to figure out how to help my dad, my son, and myself find a new way to live and be happy without her physical presence....