Hi, I'm new here. I read a few of your posts and thought maybe I was in the right place.
My beautiful Mother was killed on April 5 (just a few weeks ago) in a car accident. I lost such a big part of my life. We talked for the last time on Easter. She was wearing the kitty pj's I got her for Christmas, and she said she was going to wear them all day. I always acted silly to hear her beautiful laugh. Mom and I were best friends. She lived in GA, and I live in Co. We have our house up for sale because I wanted to move to Ga. to be close to her. We had so many plans. Mom and I talked on the phone almost every day. Sometimes more than once. If not on the phone, on the internet. Facebook, e-mail, or IM camera phone. She was a beautiful German lady so full of life, and love. She always did such sweet, special things for me & my husband. I too did special things for her as well. I am on this roller coaster of emotions. I go to bed thinking of her, I wake up thinking of her. I have daily melt downs. If I don't cry for one day I feel guilt. This is non stop. I miss her so much I can't even describe it to you. She is gone forever, so quickly, without any warning. I just want to pick up the phone and hear her sweet German accent, and her laugh. I have a hole in my life and there's no one, or anything that can fix it. Every one tells me it gets easier to deal with in time, I hope they are right because I can't take it.