Hello my LC friends it has been three years and I do not chat much because I guess you can say I am still n denial.  I feel that if I do not talk about it then it can not be true.  That my daughter is not gone and that I will wake up to the phone ringing and she will be on the other end.  Of course I know that I will never happen but it is okay to hope, right?!  Deanna Mom I feel your pain I do not lay in bed or stay closed up in my room, but that is only because I have two other daughters, and grandchildren that keep me grounded.  I can say though if I had not had them I would be in an insane asylum.  Like you people tell me taht after three years that I should be over it, but the hell with them they do not understand the pain that we feel and will continue to feel until we too go to sleep, putting it nicely.  As for me I am still going around looking at strangers thinking if they know anything about my daughter's murders or if they are the murders.  I think the other thing that keeps me sane Deanna's mom is the fact that I am still trying to solve my dauthter's murder case. Those murders took her away from her daughter who she loved with all her soul, and she literally gave her life for her child.  So whenever you lay awake at night find some comfort in knowing that you are not alone, that we too feel your pain, and we understand how you feel.  I notice that we have some newbies and too them I send an extra hug and kiss and my prayers are with all of you always.  Until next time take care an continue to express your feelings it is great therapy.  Keira Banks mom, I miss her every single day and I cry every single day I still find it hard to believe that my daughter is gone.....