This picture was taken on July 3, 2010 just before we left for my nieces wedding. Who knew that in less than 48 hours he would be gone from me.... I miss him so much. I wish that kiss could have lasted forever!!!
On July 5, 2010 my husband of 27 years was suddenly taken from me due to a heart attack at the age of 51. Just 6 months earlier he had been hospitalized for 3 days for chest pains... on a heart monitor the entire time, several EKG's, ultrasounds of heart, stress tests... they sent him home saying it was ACID REFLUX and not to worry about it. Now, he is gone because of heart disease... something the hospital should have taken care of. I believe they did nothing because we did not have insurance… Continue
Hi, Tina Greer it's been a long time. I came back to Grief Support. My lost of my husband is going on 9 years and I still miss him. I hope life have been good to you. If you ever come back leave a note and let me know how you are doing after all these years.
Oh Tina! I feel for you. I have the same feelings. My husband Stan passed away on April 2nd after being in the hospital for a very long 9 months. I just went through my "first"...Easter without Stan. Mother's Day is going to be a tough one & I am not looking forward to it. We also had no insurance other than Medicare (my husband was 71) which he exhausted all of his days being in the hospital for so long. Sometimes I wonder if we had GOOD insurance and I could have gotten the best doctors on his case if he would still be with me. All of the "what ifs?" are driving me crazy. I know nothing is going to bring him back, but I DO know that we WILL be together eternally one day...so that is my hope right now. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.
Tina, I wish there were something we could do to change things. I love and miss my husband every moment of everyday. Not a day goes by without tears- it's been 5 months. I am more shocked when I wake each morning & realize (again) that he is gone, than I would be if he walked in right now! Sounds crazy, but I am much more used to him being here than not being here and it doesn't seem real that he is gone. It is harder than people imagine unless they have experienced it themself. I understand that you are younger than most widows, as am I. Larry was only 38 yrs. old and I just turned 47 last week. He always joked that he kept me young & would care for me when I grew old, but here I am. My prayers & best wishes for you.
I have a very small family. Infact, 2 people are my family. But it is the online community that has been more of a support than anyone. You are very lucky to have a supportive family. But, it doesn't take away the pain. I know what you mean about not wanting to go there, in terms of re-visiting the rawness of it all. Every day is a little different. Today I feel better than I did yesterday and the day before was just so awful. You want with all of your might to have them hold you, have them talk with you and the fact is, they cannot. Not in the flesh anyway, and that hurts a lot. I try not to think of that too much. Well, I have started to write a journal of grief and post it on blogspot. That has helped. i hope you have a wonderful day and thank you for letting me share. xoxo
Thank you. It is the women and men here who help me realize that I am not alone in grief. I know, it is like one minute life, the next ....gone. But this is how life is. I lost my father when I was 29. Cancer. I lost my man and I am 49. I don't know very many women who have lost their loves, and I know it is hard on my friends and family because they just have no words. They try but they know that there is no consoling me. Hugs help though. Thank you again. Different is better than raw. Raw is just, frightening at times. Glad to know you are better. We all do get better, don't we? Life goes on, doesn't it? And it goes on inspite of our pain. Did your husband come to you? Mine did not and there were others who said, "Oh, I saw him. He visited me." That made me mad. But, I was with him on the last day so maybe he thought, "Well, I was just with you!" I have had a challenge of faith lately. Don't know what to believe. Just believe that he has definately moved on......Love to you. Crimson
Oh, I understand. Not the suddeness but the loss. The loss is just breathtaking. I am sorry for you. I am sorry for me. I am sorry that the tow of us lost the men that were our other halves. bless you and hope you are well. My man was 53 when lung cancer took him. One minute he was enjoying las vegas and 5 months later he was dead. There are no symptoms for lung cancer. I am so sorry for your loss. Be well, love, Crimson
Tina, I'm sorry you are haveing a hard time. Hang in with us the special days and holiday are very hard to deal with. you have a family that cares and your son sounds like a rock for you to lean on right now and it will be good for you both, don't shut out your feeling with your family they will be a great sourse of strength for you and will give them the oppertunity to express their feelings with you because i'm sure they try not to in front of you as you do with them, sometimes trying not to show your grief around loved ones is not good. god bless and a big hug to you.
I see that you are at the 4 month spot today Tina. So sorry you are having such a rough time. A good number of us have been in your shoes and wish we had the right words to comfort you. We know the pain is unbearable and we wish we could just wrap our arms around you and give you some comfort. We do feel your pain. We can't say it will get better, it will just get more tolerable as time passes. I have been suffering with ACID REFLUX myself these past 3 months and finally got a doctor to admit this past weekend its NOT. I have to have my gallbladder removed next Wednesday. Sure wish they could make up their minds. I am glad my dear Bill doesn't have to see me go thru this pain right now. And my bro just got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and is being so brave. Life keeps happening and we do wish our loved one was here to comfort but they can't. Lots of hugs coming at you Tina..