Hi TxMom sorry i didn't post on Troy's Angel Day.how was that day I'm sorry for asking late.Hope to hear from you.me here missing my beloved jesse.Hugs To You.Alicia Jesse's Mom

HI TXMOM YES KINGSVILLE IS NOT FAR. I WAS BORN HERE. MAYB DIE HERE.MY SON WAS BORN HERE ALSO HIS BRIED CLOSE BY.WHICH I WANT TO BE CLOSE BY HIM.WHY I GET SO MAD IS HE JUST WENT IN CAUSE HE HAD TAKEN TO MANY TYLENOLPM.HE WAS IN ROOM I WENT IN HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE MOM.BUT HE NEVER CAME HOME.SO SAD.ITS GOOD YOU'RE SON HAS A BABY.A PIECE OF OF YOUR BELOVED SON AT LEAST YOU CAN HOLD HIM.SO HIS YOU'RE SON'S TWIN.MAKES ME SMILE.IM HAPPY FOR YOU.MY SON NEVER HAD BABIES.HE HAD A COUPLE OF GIRLFRIENDS.BUT NONE OF THEM HAD A BABY JESSE. WELL ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY.WELL TAKE CARE OF YOU'RE SELF AND YOU'RE GRANSON.YOU GOT OTHER KID'S? I STILL HAVE 2 DAUGHTERS 4 SONS.BUT EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. LOVE THEM ALL.BUT MISS JESSE.ALICIA JESSE'S MOM

HI TXMOM ITS A NICE PIC OF HIM ON THE BEACH MY SON LIKED GOIN TO PADRE ISLAND WE LIVE! WELL I LIVE IN HARLINGEN LIKE 25 MILES FROM BEACH I HAD PICTURES LAST TIME I WENT TO BEACH WIth JESSE BUT NOW I CAN'T FIND THEM BUT I HAVE SOME OF HIM N HIS GIRLFRIEND. I MISS HIM.TODAY I PASSED BY RESTAURANT HE LIKED TO GO EAT N MY TEARS JUST RAN DOWN.MY FACE
IT IS SO SAD.THAT I'LL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN.I JUST WANT TO GO CRAZY. IM SORRY I JUST HAVE THIS FEELINGS. THANKS FOR BINGING HERE. ALICIA JESSE'S MOM. HOW WELL WE GO ON LIVING.SO SAD.

HI TXMOM IM SORRY FOR YOU'RE LOSS.I LOST MY BELOVED SON ON 7/12/09.I MISS HIM EVERYDAY. HE WAS 28.OLDER THEN YOU'RE BELOVED SON.THEY'RE STILL OUR CHILDREN. I CRY ALMOST EVERY DAY.I MISS HIM SO.GOD BLESS YOU ALICIA JESSE'S MOM

I'm so sorry for your loss. I live in Cypress, Texas and I lost my brother in 2007 and my son in 2009 to suicide. I started a Facebook group for Survivors of Suicide in Texas. If you would like to join this group also,
please click on the link below to join. Or search groups on Facebook under Survivors of Suicide - Texas. It's another place for survivors of suicide to find support and information. Hugs and healing to you! Love,Stephanie

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=318420411588&ref=ts

HI ;WE LOST OUR SON RYAN 8/26/2009- TO SUICIDE.HE WAS ONLY 31 YRS. OLD, & A FATHER OF 3 LITTLE BOYS- TWINS-AGE 10 & ANOTHER SON -AGE 9 . HE SHOT HIMSELF IN THE RITE TEMPLE. It has left us all so devasted. His grown siblings are so lost w/out him too .I cry nearly every day till I'm ready to drop.Everything reminds me of him since he lived w/us for nearly 2 yrs.He's everywhere & all over the place.His room screams his absence, it has made such a hole in our world, that nothing can ever fill.I keep saying why, though it all stemmed from a divorce 2 yrs earlier.He had lost everything, his wife,his boys, (except for visits), his new car, a new truck & new boat .He'd attemped the same thing 2 yrs. before & lived thru it but succeeded this time .We hurt so for his children too, they all look so much like him ! Our pain is so bad we can't hardly go on .If I could bring him back I would- yet I know thats impossible !! I have written to him several times- it seems to help a little .Will this ever get any easier ? I too wish we could've by-passed Christmas- he loved it so much too.We did not get together as a family it hurt so badly.

thank you for your heart felt sharing. I feel as you do. Justin has been gone 7 and a half months. im starting to give myself permission to be angry with him. WHY couldnt he have just followed the doctors orders. Justin and I both suffer with bi polar. Ive been in treratment 13 years just the last 2 really have been the most helpful. How could he have not seen that and trusted me to help him live with it. I feel giulty for being angry with him.. Why didnt i save him like youy feel I am his mother for god sake!!!! how do we go on and trust in god. Pleasr dont hold it in it will eat you alive.. our sons would want us to live a life for them to be proud of. About a month ago i got really mad at everyone and my husband got me a pile of rocks to throw in the river one at a time i thew them and yelled and cried. my arm was sore but my soul felt beeter for having released it. stay in touch . god bless you sherre

Dear Txmom,
My fiance committed suicide on sept 28th. He was 37 yrs old. He was told countless of times he should of been a moviestar, he had a killer smile. I had no indication that this would ever occur. We bought a business almost a year ago....his dream....he was a retired athlete....it was a baseball training academy....and our life together was florishing. He had stress like we all do but nothing to be alarmed about. He was down in the dumps on some days but nothing we haven't experienced. We (me friends and family) had no reason to ever believe this would occur. His Dad and I found him. That day probably will never be erased from my life. I can not be mad at him...I just hurt for him. How he must of been suffering internally, how much turmoil he must of had. The weekend prior to his suicide was one of the best weekends we had. I think my GOD how did he do that suffering so badly inside. It hurts me that he did not feel he could turn to me BUT for some reason he did not. I truly believe we need to look at suicide as a disease, just like cancer, heart disease, etc. I live in pgh and they are doing a study here demostrating how the brain of a person who commits suicide is much different from one who does not. It does shed some light into such a dark action. Grief is so very difficult when someone dies "normally" let alone by suicide. It just throws so many more dimensions into the equation of healing. With support, prayer and some time things will begin to fall in place. I will pray for your family. Tammy

Txmom,
I know its been said a thousand times ...I am very sorry for the loss of your son. 16 is so young, a life so full of promise but most importantly he was your beloved son.
A mothers love is like no other..I know that sounds like a Hallmark card, but its true. I am sure he knew he could talk to you, he could count on you. Im sure your name was the first word out of his mouth when he needed something. Mom can you ?... I am a mom and I can only imagine the pain you are in.
I am glad you found this site. I can thank a forum full of warm and wise people for my way bck from hell.
I hope you post often. It helps to talk, especially to others who have been there. I lost my brother and it has been 7 yrs now. Kay( step-mom & friend) was murdered by a man who suicided almost 8 years ago.
I still find myself on forums.
Sue