I just wanted to relate with you because I feel the same. I am only 24 years old and I lost my mom on November 23rd, 2009. She was only 52. Going through these posts it seems that it's just as hard to loose your mom young as it is older, but I still cannot help and get kind of upset when I see other people talking about loosing their mom at age 75+. 52 is way to young. And worse is that she always wanted to keep fighting. She was so scared of dying. I just hope that by the end she had accepted it. I still feel bad though, because the two things that she wanted to see before she died was my sister and I getting married and having children. She wanted grandchildren so badly. I really miss my mom. Also, I was trying to find on here if other people have had health issues too. Ever since my mom passed away I have been sick with something or another. I don't know how to stop it. It's been almost 2 months now, and I don't know if it's just a coincidence or if there's something more to it.