Todd, I'm sorry for the loss of your wife Claudia. I just lost my husband Ken 2 months ago. I am so lost without him but I joined this group a week or so ago and it has helped. Since there's no one in my family or friends with the experience of losing a spouse, it helps me to come here and read the comments of others who have been through it and feel the way I do. It's almost funny how when I think something I feel or am thinking is crazy, I come here and find someone else who feels or thinks the same things. I guess it makes me feel "normal", not that I'll ever feel normal again. I hope you can come to this forum to find peace and friendship.