Tony, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I can identify with your feeling like you didn't do enough. I have battled those feelings off and on for months since my husband passed unexpectedly. What I have finally come to grips with is that there are some things out of my control. Death is one of those. God has numbered our days. When our time here is up, there is nothing anyone can do to change that. While knowing that doesn't make the grief go away, it did help me to release the guilt feelings. This is all so new for you and your feelings are raw. Take it slowly, one day at a time. May God cover you with His love and ease the pain you are experiencing. I pray that tomorrow will be a little bit easier for you.