Hi Trish wishing you a good day. and me.. we are all here for a reason. i am sad. but that is the truth. i never knew sadness like this. he wouldn't want this.. i will try to remember that carrie L
I'm so sorry about the loss of your son Ryan. It's so horrible to have to go through this pain.
I also had felt a closeness to God after losing Autumn, but I went to church Christmas Eve to get a sense of peace and the sermon was all about money, so I was disappointed. I will have to make an effort to go back, just not sure when.
Thank you for your insight on this "process", it does help to know how others who have been here have felt or handled it.
When I'm with my son's friends and they are telling stories about my son, it really warms my heart. I want to wish you a very comfortable Christmas. This is the holiday that we loved to share with our children ...and that's what makes it hard now. I have a surviving son and I want him to be happy.
When I'm with my son's friends and they are telling stories about my son, it really warms my heart. I want to wish you a very comfortable Christmas. This is the holiday that we loved to share with our children ...and that's what makes it hard now. I have a surviving son and I want him to be happy.
Thanks. I had grief counseling for the first 5 months at hospice here in Florida. I just recently thought I needed to work on issues with me and made an appt for me. Yes, I really miss my son. His son, my grandson turned 8 this past week and played his first football game today, my son should have been there, yet from our side of the family it was me and I felt so alone. So bad for my grandson who lost his dad so young and probably will not remember much of who he was. Plus my son had not seen his son for a year prior to that because of child support, he tried, so when my grandson asked me why his daddy didn't call him before he died I wanted to cry!!!
Trish also my daughter put a permanent obituary in the contra costa times, allowing me to write when ever I felt a need to, too my son. That too has helped me express my feelings. His name was Colin Nash Davies you can go to his guest book and see all my entries. That has helped me a lot.....
Trish I too lost a son in Jan 2005, I still feel great pain. But there is a sucide group in W.C. CA at the crises center. I went to it for over a year. It helped but I feel I will forever feel the pain and never heal completely. They also have groups for sisters,brothers, and just the lost of a loved one by sucide. But the group for parents was a tremdous help. If you need someone to talk to please feel free to email me at beckihanneman@yahoo.com Sincerely from one mother to another mother.....
Thank you all for writing, I have been to Charlie's grave to talk to him and know he is in the good hands of our God. While missing his laughter and presence I have begun to accept that his way out was the only way he saw, thinking that if he had talked to anyone he would have done differently but "it was his choice and only he and God knew just what went through his mind", this was said at his service by our pastor. Charlie's body is laid to rest at the church he went to as a child but he lives on in Heaven and in the hearts of all who knew him, and thanks to all of you, some who did not.
Thinking of everyone, wishing we could turn back the hands of time. Nothing takes the pain away; though how I wish, selfishly I suppose, that Chad had gotten to be a dad and a husband. Those grandchildren that will never be how I miss them; but not anywhere near how much I miss my son. We are so forever changed. There will be good times, but I don't think, ever good days. www.chadarthurholbrook.com
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Trish,
I'm so sorry about the loss of your son Ryan. It's so horrible to have to go through this pain.
I also had felt a closeness to God after losing Autumn, but I went to church Christmas Eve to get a sense of peace and the sermon was all about money, so I was disappointed. I will have to make an effort to go back, just not sure when.
Thank you for your insight on this "process", it does help to know how others who have been here have felt or handled it.
Thanks again

Thank you all for writing, I have been to Charlie's grave to talk to him and know he is in the good hands of our God. While missing his laughter and presence I have begun to accept that his way out was the only way he saw, thinking that if he had talked to anyone he would have done differently but "it was his choice and only he and God knew just what went through his mind", this was said at his service by our pastor. Charlie's body is laid to rest at the church he went to as a child but he lives on in Heaven and in the hearts of all who knew him, and thanks to all of you, some who did not.View All Comments