Vee, Sorry I haven't been on line, but last Friday my machine went down and I had to go and get a new mother board, and a power supply. It took me a couple of days before I was able to get everything connected to the new mother board.
I have been thinking about you, and have been praying for you. I know everything is so fresh for u. But take your time, no body can tell another person on how long they can grieve. There are so many stages, that I just kinda go back and forth.
I've had a hard week this week. When things go wrong, I lways knew that Arthur would take care of it. So, I've been going through a slight depression this week, and have spent most of the week in bed (: crying and wishing I could turn back the clock, to the night Arthur told me how much he loved me, I sometimes wish all of this is a bad dream... I miss him so much that I feel like 1/2 my heart is gone. and I want him back so bad. TO HEAR HIM SAY "I LOVE YOU BABY", THANKING ME FOR BEING A GOOD WIFE". and I can't hardly remember what that day was like, There are so many whats, why's, if's. People tell me all the time to move on. My older sister called me the other nite and said "Lynn it's almost 6yrs, if you don't move on, you'll be old and alone.
She just doesn't get it. I'm not afraid of being alone. And know that I will never marry again. I truely believe he was my soul-mate, and there will never be another man that can fill his shoes. Ijust wanted to let you know that I'm still thinking about you. And, I pray that God will give you peace, with your memories, and the time that you had with your Husband.
Thank you, Vee...
Thank you for hearing me and for being so incredibly supportive of all and everyone here! I know you have and share the same pain and heartache....I can't imagine the suddenness of your loss and I pray for you and Shannon every day...I pray for us all to walk through each day with less pain and sorrow...for each day to bring us a little smile, a little sunshine..thank you for being a friend.
Hugs to you,