Sure Vince, I wouldn't have any problem sharing stories. My brother's one year in coming up this next Thursday, and I have no idea how I'm going to be. But I can tell you since that day, I have changed as a person tremendously. I, too, have had a hard time finding myself again. The hardest thing I've had to overcome is the lose of motivation I've experience. Work, money, and school have seemed so.. insignificant. I have found some of my motivation to live and do what I want, but it's been hard. I went to some Survivors of Suicide support group, and one thing a member said that I have tried to grasp is that just because they chose to stop living, doesn't mean we have too. If we do, it's a loss of one more life. I've had a wonderful support system through my family, friends, the support group, a counselor, and even my job. Of course, I've even searched on the internet to find some kind of relief and watched youtube video after youtube video of others talking about their loved ones. Hope you are doing ok, because I know I had some very dark days. The pain doesn't go away, but it becomes bearable, although it may not seem like it now. But I'd love to share stories and, if possible, help.