I go to visit my husband's grave site often. It has been 17 months and his family members are expressing concern as to why I haven't put a stone on him. I don't know if I am ready to visit and see his name on it. That just seems that it will make it even more final. Am I being selfish ? I know his mom is hurting to. I just don't know what to do. If I decide to do it what is the process ?
I noticed for the first time since my Peter left that I know longer wake up crying. My heart still feels like it's being yanked out of my body. I no longer cry but I still cannot get up in the morning. I'm late for work everyday. Thank God I have a compassionate employer. Each day I put on a happy face so my children won't worry but it isn't getting any better. My life consist of work and home. I'll be retiring from work in a few months. I just can't do it anymore. I don't return…Continue