Thanx for your comment. I just want you to know that your aren't "bothering" people around you if you talk about it. If they love you, they won't mind...its a part of grieving. I've learned that it is much easier to deal with if you vocalize your feelings. When you keep them to yourself, its easy to be taken over by them. At one point I was angry because no one would talk about my mother's passing, and to me it seemed as if they were pretending it didnt happened, but Ive learned that people don't necessarily know what to say and/or when to say it so they dont. But, any chance you get to vocalize your feelings helps...trust me. I also recommend journalizing your thoughts.