Hi Ashley, Today is Valentine's Day and I just came on my wall when I came across your name again. I hope you're coping but if you are still crying and emotionally it's not a surprise. After I lost my brother in 1995 I cried when I'd see many different movies that had nothing to do with brothers. The movies just touched me. It takes time to control emotions and then it will still happen when tears trickle down my face. Let me know how you're doing if you've been able to find a group to attend at a church or a bereavement group somewhere in your town. Did you go on loss of a sibling? Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way. Always, always keep your chin up and think good thoughts for your future.
I just read your response. I'll always remember Nov.1995 when I was just about to go to sleep around 3am when my son Joey came in and said, "Uncle Richie's dead his wife is on the phone." I couldn't stop crying and when my husband and I went to tell my mother I had on sun-glasses because I was crying all the while. His passing changed my life as did my dad 4 years prior. I thought losing the first 2 men I loved was bad until the worst happened when my only child Joe passed. Then just 2 years later I lost my mother. Just wanted to give you more back ground so you can know that I can understand and identify with what you are talking about with your emotions be all over. You're not going crazy it's normal to feel the way you do. Today was a down day for me. Even that I went to a Christmas dinner from my garden club on Thursday night. Today Friday I felt so down missing all of them. I work very hard at living in the present but loved ones as close as parents and a child are special. They remain in our hearts no matter how good anything in life can be. It is difficult for your mother losing her son. My mother lost her son and then my son who lived with her was terrible because he was like a son to her. I should go on the loss of sibling so I can communicate with you. I think I'm registered but don't go there. Just know it's very normal to cry when losing a sibling. A sibling is a buffer. Things are shared in the family with a sibling. Maybe you can go visit your mother in South Carolina. Unless you have a job and can't leave it. Take care of yourself.
Ashley please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your big brother. What was his name? I lost my only child named Joe when a drunk driver hit him on his motorcycle. Joe had been at our house for Easter and left our house sometime before midnight April 4, 2010 on April 5th at 8am 2 police arrived one from two towns. My mother was woke up by the police even earlier and her neighbor was on the phone to my husband in a panic over my mother being upset. I was in shock and denial but did sent out an email to my friends. And also to the list of Joe's friends that I had from his emails he sent to me. There's a lot to the story but I just wanted to touch bases with you and let you know that there are some of us who can identify. I also lost my only brother in 1995 now I have no immediate family to speak of. I believe I am signed up on 3 groups her for loss of parents, sibling and child. If you and your parents can bring yourself to go I suggest to attend a group from a church if there are any in your area. May God Bless You and Yours!