Dear Beth, just a note to let you know that the people on this site are great, we support each other no matter what, we can come here and vent or we come here to encourage but mostly we are always here for you.  The grieving process is a long and very painful experience.  I think that all of us have experienced the terrible missing of our spouse, the thinking that he will be home any minute.  That deep yearning for him and all that he was in our life. My husband passed away just 9 weeks ago so believe me when I tell you I know how you feel.  If you ever want to share  a really bad day or a great day put it on the board, we all benefit from helping one another.  My prayers will continue for you and all the people in the group.      Janice