Hi Cynthia, hope things are well. I guess you know as well as anyone, Christmas is the hardest and this one is my first one alone, so I feel especially down. The best part is knowing my family is watching over me. Sometimes its a pain and I wish they would leave me alone but they are only looking out for me and I am thankful (sorta). I've pretty much been crying all day. It's also my sister's birthday so we've spent some time talking today. I just want the next two days to end so things can get back to normal (or as normal as possible). I have been trying to stay strong and I'm working now so that keeps me busy. When the new year comes I will be looking for an office job in sales which is what I know. Right now I'm doing warehouse work cuz it's mindless, I don't have to put a lot of thought into it and I don't have to be smiling at everyone if I don't feel like it. Anyway, I wanted to know where you are, I'm in Brampton. I thought maybe if we are fairly close we could have a coffee or something. Anyway, talk to you soon
this is by far the worst experience of my life. I left him passed out and went to work. It was nothing I had not seen before, he was excessive in everything he did, including drugs (which was probably the worst). I found him when I got home. I knew something was wrong when he wasn't waiting for me at the door. He was like a puppy that way, just waiting for me to get home. I am lucky in that my family is supportive but they don't understand the drug issues and like I said for the most part the only people I know are users and dealers. I am finding it hard to find others to relate to.