"Chicago, what a great memory of you and your wife, all memories are bittersweet aren't they, we love them but also make us sad. Very happy you have found another love, yes you will always grieve for your wife but she would be happy for…"
"Dear Christine, I am so sorry to hear about the positive results, My sister had breast cancer 6 years ago, she had a lumpectomy but also underwent chemo and is now cancer free. Regardless on what you decide to do I know this must be very…"
"Its so sad listening to everyones story and what everyone has been thru. most of my family is super supportive but of course they cant understand, my oldest sister is very strange in the things she says to me though like telling me my husband…"
"David, its most certainly not ridiculous for you to post that you are having a bad day, some days are just worse then others and that's what this group is for to support one another when we need it most. right now the doc has me on Lexapro, he…"
"Ive had 2 readings by John Edward, both times before Greg passed but my first husband and my parents came thru and stuff he said only they could of told him, both these times I just happened to hear about it on the radio and I called in and got thru…"
"david, I'm so sorry you are having a bad day, its so hard isn't it. I would be thrilled beyond measure if Greg could come back but only if forever, that we could both pass at the same time so neither of us would have to go thru this. Ive…"
"I'm so sorry you had to do that, I kinda had the same experience with my Greg, he was in the hospital for a week before I took him home and he begged me to take him home even though he was so weak I couldn't care for him myself, he finally…"
"Pattie, I think its great that you are seeing someone and wish you nothing but the best. We all wish for more time with our loved ones, but I'm not sure if I do as I couldn't go thru the shock of losing them again, my sis said she wished…"
I too am struggling with going anyplace with friends, I keep making plans and then canceling them, I asked them to please not give up on me that I would want to eventually. I have no problem going with family but friends are…"
"Christine, I wish I could tell you why this horrible thing has happened to each of us but I cant, When my 1st husband passed the question why was always there in my mind until I thought I would go crazy and until I accepted that I would know…"
"David, yes this site is a lifesaver for many of us, its comforting for some reason to know that others are going thru what we are even though we don't wish this on anyone, I get on here a lot since its just me and my dog and nights are the…"
"Mary Jane, I too go along with my life and go places and do things and I KNOW hes gone but it seems like I'm always saying to him, I guess your not coming back are you. its so weird to me since his ashes sit on his dresser and I kiss him…"
"last night we went to a Christmas remembrance ceremony for Greg and other familys that had lost someone, it went okay until they read his name, it was like a shock to hear his name listed along with others that have passed, why after 6 months do I…"
"I went to the surgeon today to get my stitches out and to get the final biopsy report and it was all clear, stage 2 but they got it all, am very relieved, I couldn't imagine putting my kids thru any more pain, Christine, I don't think you…"
I identify with u i had two fiances that passed away in my life & I cant compare & wont because my first fiancé I knew was sick with COPD vet bad & he was very open about his death and he died in my arms in the hosp and I knew how he died plus he we were exactly like someone married we shared everything but morein the yrs i knew him and was with him more married than my marriage the only reason we we not married by the time of his death, his divorce had not gone thru yet & his wife was giving him a hard time but atleast i knew a love that i had and now 15 yrs later can finally say I was a very lucky woman to have known, felt, such love my fiancé that just passed away in Aug, 2017 died without me there. i still to this day do not know how he died (i was having surgery 300 miles away) & b4 I left he made it pretty clear he wanted me to leave after my surgery and came back The shock I felt when he died, the not knowing how and all the assuming (he had a bad heart & was supposed to get a pacemaker) one minute he would tell me how much he loved me and so many times he kept saying I want to marry u and even plan the date and were we would spend our honeymoon it was even as close as a month before his death. I do know this I loved both of them equally as much, and with my fiancé Frank, his death has me so confused, and wondering know if he ever loved me at all. Now after his death I see so many things he did for me that I never saw when he was alive but I don’t know if i’m just not dealing with all the hurtful things he said and did to me too. i don’t even at this point consider myself as his fiancé before he died i don’t know what he was now. We lived together for 2 yrs and the last time he proposed marriage i said let’s just do it, i knew in my gut something was going to happen i thought to me not him he was such a strong person and we are both not kids waiting im 67 soon to be 68 in April 3, and he was 65 going to be 66 on April 2nd two Aries oh boy we were supposed to get married in 2017 in April 3 but because of my surgery and him not wanting me anymore blaming me for his heart attack he had 3 wks before my surgery he was so angry at me and that i still don’t know why but now all i want to do is let him go, I’m getting so tired of grieving for him, I now still don’t have my apt anymore lost almost everything and I am not blaming him because I was the fool who loved him so much, and still do, but why?? It’s obvious to me he was either lying to me about loving me ever or I can’t even fathom and am still in shock but just want him out of my mind and get on with whatever life is left and have some joy because between both of my fiances there was such a major difference I think that with Frank I thought he would be like Al (my first fiancé) and show me all the love he had or had too much expectations but the nit knowing atleast how Frank died no one will tell me in his family I am trying for months to get his Death Certificate but i’m in nyc and was living in nys and it seems almost impossible to get one from the county up there that their laws are so different up there and searching and searching on the internet for something but they all want money and don’t promise results. I’m just getting very tired of all the researching when i should be grieving and moving on, i might never know, i’ve even thgt maybe it was suicide the last phone call i received from him the day before he died sounded very sick (i can’t share it now) but with his heart history i can only assume it was his heart and only know he died in the hospital. I even called the county coroner who shared with me he only investigates things like murders or deaths that r under investigations but did tell me if he died in the hosp that means they didn’t find him home dead or he didn’t die in the ambulance he passed away in the hospital and was there for over 24 hrs that’s all he could tell me legally. i still have so much guilt , I get angry at myself for loving.