"Chuck, I loved the way you felt safe here and how honest you were. I was thinking yesterday how horrible this must be for people with severe depression and anxiety and then it dawned on me how many people in abusive relationships were now in real…"
"Mary Jane I feel like this is our safe zone to rant all we want and we all get there now and then so no worries. The weather here is starting to be nice out so have been doing yard work and enjoying my porch, I usually walk a lot but the parks here…"
"Steve, that was good for a laugh. sounds like everyone is staying safe. I went to the store yesterday with gloves a mask and hand sanitizer, I read where a doctor said the mask wont help but also said it will remind you not to touch your face amd I…"
"Sarah stay safe out there, my daughter is being released Wednsday to go back to work, she never received her test results but it is 2 weeks so she is good, Chuck I went to an early morning grocery run and I too was surprised by the workers not…"
"Yesterday was finally a nice enough day to get out and enjoy some sunshine, took my dog hiking in the woods behind my subdivision, felt really blessed to be able to do such a small thing. hope everyone is healthy and please stay safe"
"Thank you all for the nice thoughts, Michele I too have three that are nurses saying prayers for all in the health field to remain healthy. we will remain sheltered in our own homes until this virus is gone. But have to admit I am going stir crazy,…"
"My daughters patient tested negative so we are thrilled for her and us, still waiting to hear about my daughter but think it will be negative too, I am so having withdrawls from not seeing my grandkids, my daughters and I are all staying in our own…"
"Hope this finds everyone healthy. My house is officially quarantined ,one of my daughters patients is now in the hospital for double pneumonia and are waiting results for cornav test, my daughter is home sick with same symptoms and was tested…"
"Mary Jane, I too had thoughts of I was glad Greg didn't have to go thru this because of his health, We ar all being very careful in my house, my daughter and grandson live here too, she is a nurse at an elite health care facility for the…"
"Just got back from my scrapbooking convention with my sister, was kinda spooky, not as many people and its all anyone talked about, we went to store to get wipes for our hotel room only to come home with Clorox floor pads for a swifter, but hey it…"
"the weather here has been great for the past week, temps in the 50s and 60s, makes me want to work in the yard if it wasn't a mudhole right now and the fact I know we aren't done with winter. I am so an outside person, my mood improves and…"
"Mary Jane, I have been reading all the post from everyone this morning and I feel so much pain in everyones words. Anger is a hard thing, I had so muchof it after my 1st husband passed away at 36, way to young and U was only 31 with 3 little girls.…"
"Marsha, I am so sorry you are going thru a hard time right now, I get the crying jags and having to just let it out, if not it hits you at the strangest times, I think it really does take the first few years to realize they aren't coming back,…"
"Hello everyone, seems like everyone has a hard time with this day, Todd Im so sorry this is a double whammy for you. My sister and I were going to do lunch and a movie today, just to have something to do andI was really looking forward to it but she…"
I identify with u i had two fiances that passed away in my life & I cant compare & wont because my first fiancé I knew was sick with COPD vet bad & he was very open about his death and he died in my arms in the hosp and I knew how he died plus he we were exactly like someone married we shared everything but morein the yrs i knew him and was with him more married than my marriage the only reason we we not married by the time of his death, his divorce had not gone thru yet & his wife was giving him a hard time but atleast i knew a love that i had and now 15 yrs later can finally say I was a very lucky woman to have known, felt, such love my fiancé that just passed away in Aug, 2017 died without me there. i still to this day do not know how he died (i was having surgery 300 miles away) & b4 I left he made it pretty clear he wanted me to leave after my surgery and came back The shock I felt when he died, the not knowing how and all the assuming (he had a bad heart & was supposed to get a pacemaker) one minute he would tell me how much he loved me and so many times he kept saying I want to marry u and even plan the date and were we would spend our honeymoon it was even as close as a month before his death. I do know this I loved both of them equally as much, and with my fiancé Frank, his death has me so confused, and wondering know if he ever loved me at all. Now after his death I see so many things he did for me that I never saw when he was alive but I don’t know if i’m just not dealing with all the hurtful things he said and did to me too. i don’t even at this point consider myself as his fiancé before he died i don’t know what he was now. We lived together for 2 yrs and the last time he proposed marriage i said let’s just do it, i knew in my gut something was going to happen i thought to me not him he was such a strong person and we are both not kids waiting im 67 soon to be 68 in April 3, and he was 65 going to be 66 on April 2nd two Aries oh boy we were supposed to get married in 2017 in April 3 but because of my surgery and him not wanting me anymore blaming me for his heart attack he had 3 wks before my surgery he was so angry at me and that i still don’t know why but now all i want to do is let him go, I’m getting so tired of grieving for him, I now still don’t have my apt anymore lost almost everything and I am not blaming him because I was the fool who loved him so much, and still do, but why?? It’s obvious to me he was either lying to me about loving me ever or I can’t even fathom and am still in shock but just want him out of my mind and get on with whatever life is left and have some joy because between both of my fiances there was such a major difference I think that with Frank I thought he would be like Al (my first fiancé) and show me all the love he had or had too much expectations but the nit knowing atleast how Frank died no one will tell me in his family I am trying for months to get his Death Certificate but i’m in nyc and was living in nys and it seems almost impossible to get one from the county up there that their laws are so different up there and searching and searching on the internet for something but they all want money and don’t promise results. I’m just getting very tired of all the researching when i should be grieving and moving on, i might never know, i’ve even thgt maybe it was suicide the last phone call i received from him the day before he died sounded very sick (i can’t share it now) but with his heart history i can only assume it was his heart and only know he died in the hospital. I even called the county coroner who shared with me he only investigates things like murders or deaths that r under investigations but did tell me if he died in the hosp that means they didn’t find him home dead or he didn’t die in the ambulance he passed away in the hospital and was there for over 24 hrs that’s all he could tell me legally. i still have so much guilt , I get angry at myself for loving.