I just read your letter to me. Thank you, you made me feel better. Last night i had a dream Jimmy and I were fighting. It was sooo real, I wanted to cry my eyes out but with the other 3 little one's i could not. Like most on this site and everywhere, I and lost and sad and searching for something to help. He was such a happy and great kid and wonder what was in his mind when he took his life. I also wonder why god did not send such a lost hurt boy back to his mom and dad and wonder if he tried it before and and god allready did give him another chance. My 8 and 11yr olds have had dreams and i just want every detail, anyway, Thank You.

Hi Del, Sorry I didn't write sooner. I read Your post to me and just cried My Eyes out because I Knew that You Are Totally Right. How am I going to be able to see My Son's name on the Memorial Headstone and Have a "Happy" Birthday Party for Danny. Well it has taken some time and I have struggled with the idea but I have decided to go through with it. He was killed on his Birthday and I know that My own Birthday that just passed was Another Worst Day of My Life due to thinking.. "Even if I laid in bed All Day and Had My Arm Sawed off it would still be a Better Birthday then Danny had.". No Doubt ... Anyway with All that said I decided to go a head with the Birthday/Memorial Party. I know lots of people in Lots of Bands that would Play, I know the People that do Fire Shows "Ohio Burn Unit" they spin fire, blow fire, hula hoop with fire, spin fire and just put on a Very Fun Show and another Very Good Friend of mine Welcomed me to use his 20 Acres which is only 1 mile from the Cemetery and 1/4 mile from My House. The photo that I attached was taken at Nelson Ledges Quarry Park in Ohio right after he died. That photo will be engraved across the whole front of Danny's Memorial Stone with his name Engraved in the Water. I am going to be Surrounded by Love and Love Will Get Me Through This.. Thank You for Helping me look and figure out how to deal with All A

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Thank You for the kind words. You are such a Awesome person. It's is nice to know that someone cares. It is so hard dealing with the loss of My Son Danny. I am scared to death about his upcoming Birthday (6 months a way). The only way I think that I will make it through that day is if someone puts me in a induced coma. For Real. One idea that I had was to maybe unvale Dannys Headstone on his Birthday with some Family and friends but My Sons Dad has not put .10c on Dannys Headstone so I am going to have to find a way to pay his half too so I can make this happen. If I do somehow get this together I think it will the best thing to do that day and share Fun Stories about Danny. How Messed up can this be on My Sons Birthday he ends up with a headstone. We were going to go shopping for Dannys Birthday on Monday (the day after his Birthday) but of course he Never made it Home and so for his Birthday I bought him cloths to wear in his Casket. I HATE this SOOOO MUCH!!! I'm Sorry, I am Freakin out. This Is NOT RIGHT. My Birthday is April 13th and I REALLY don't think I am going to be able to Stand that day At All Either. I feel So Much for you also. Your Son was taken from you only 4 days before My Son was taken from me. It does Not get easier. I'm sure that we are both doing better then week one or week two but at least during week one and week two I still didn't believe it and now I know for sure I will Never get the pleasure of seeing My Son at least in this life. My Son did not have any children but part of me wishes that he did so I can at least have an extention of My Child to Hug and hold. I feel for You in so many ways. I know that your pain is deep due to the way your son died. I wish that I could do Something to ease Your pain if only a little bit. (((((((((((HUG-DEL ROGERS))))))))))

I'm sorry about your loss. It is so sad that he had 3 children that he left behind. My heart aches for you and them. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my son. I miss him so much. He was my rock. I find it hard to believe that he killed himself. Too many things don't connect. His birthday is next month I'm already thinking about that. Just know that you are not alone, a lot of people are dealing with this, we should not be burying our children, they should be burying us.

Hi Dell, I have a candle lit all day every day for my Son, I get the tall big candles in a jar at the dollar store and they last about 3 days...I feel better having one lit at all times, And I dont know why that is.
((((((HUGS TO YOU DELL!)))))))

he hasnt gone to prison yet,the trial will be this summmer and my other kids were not there when it happened if they would have been this wouldnt have happened..god bless you

thank you that is what gets me through sometimes knowing that he is not suffering anymore..caden was a special needs child,he just began to walk when he was 1 and a half and he didnt talk yet but i know that he is in gods arm and i look forward to the day i see him again..i am so sorry for your loss

Hi Del, thanks so much for your encouragement. Believe me thats all exactly what I am trying to do "Give it to God" but, for me at this moment it's easier said than done. No matter because I continue towards getting closer to the Lord little bit more each day. I already feel better today than I did yesterday. I also want to express to you how sorry I am for your Great loss. Jasmin also left me the Gift of a Beautyful 12 year old Grandaughter and she was 30 when she passed. With that similarity alone we are both blessed. I like very much your conviction, dedication and boldness from everything I read from you thus far. I can only hope to be there one day. Once more I deeply sympathize with you and feel for you & yours in this time of Grief. Truly, Roberto.