Sorry, just read your blog. I understand the feeling guilty. I was right beside my husband when he left me. I feel guilty in that I did not insist he go to the hospital earlier.. I know he probably would have still passed with all his problems but it does not change my feelings. He passed in the hallway of our home and I cannot avoid the area. I am also having a hard time sleeping and eating. If I do eat, I get so sick to my stomach, nerves they tell me. Sleep is hard too. I cry myself to sleep everynight. The holidays have been awful. I will be glad when they are over. Not that it will really make a difference, the house will still be empty. I hope you find some peace in that he is not in pain anymore-that is what I keep telling myself.

hi. This is so new to me. I lost my husband just a few weeks ago on Thanksgiving morning. This is the hardest thing I have  ever done. I have several aunts who are widowed and a couple of classmates but I cannot bring myself to talk to them about it. I guess it is still so new for me and upsetting at the same time. I am hoping that this site helps me with sharing my feelings and gain some insight to moving on in my life. Did you lose your spouse?

Thanks. Hope you find increasing courage and peace with us. Would be happy to know your first name.

e, if you go to the main page you will see where there are different groups listed, and even experts with whom you can chat. I lost my son and am a member of the group 'Loss of a Child'. People on 'Loss of a Friend' will more easily identify with you and be able to help you grieve.

Best wishes.

May I suggest that you tell us the name and age of who you lost, maybe with a photograph (although many members have never posted one), and we hope that the support will flow in.