my wife marilyn passed away on feb 13 this year with lung cancer.she had been courageously fighting this for 2 years.i thought i was prepared for her death but the pain i am going through now is nothing that i have ever experienced before.i am diligently working through the grief process but at times i feel so lost.i am constantly coming with new tools to help me which my grievence counceller tells me is good but i despair that eventually i will run uot of ideas.