Hi Geri I am glad we can share this tragedy because it seems like we are all alone and this is not true we have all suffered horrible tragedys and forever losses and the nightmare continues until we also join them.. i see that time doesn't make it better as i thought it would not but talking to another mom whose heart is broken passes the time and changes the thought a bit.. hope you are ok love to you carrie

Hi Geri,I'm sorry for the loss of your son,you said you don't let on anymore and that's something you should not have to hide and the reason I say this is because I had to do that for a while and I stopped,if I'm having a bad day because of the loss of my daughter I make it known and I don't get ill with anyone I just go and think by myself if others have a heart and see you're having a moment they should do one of two things either come and just say nothing or sit and say how can I be an ear,but you should not have too bottle up your pain and watch others feel good.that's just a suggestion because your heart matters too.It only leads to silent frustration because then you think they really don't care because I know they know that you are hurting and your hurt, should be their hurt.Be Blessed

Hi Geri my computer is acting up. anyway i was reading your blog and feel so bad for you. and me. we are eternally without our sons and should be with them not eternally but on this earth. without. them. our beautiful babies. turned men thank goodness. I want him. i want him and i know you do also. please. i saw it has been a while for you not me but i see how i will be when those years pass just the same. how horrible. i feel your pain and know you feel mine and talking to strangers seems strange but there is a bond that we cannot explain our beautiful children where on this earth for about the same time and taken from us at about the same time so we are the few sharing this tragedy. not those people in our families yes they feel some but not all they are not their mothers. Carrie L

Geri, I can really relate to you. As you know I lost my Travis on 2-15-2005 at age 25. He died by suicide and he was my only child. I have very few good days, but I know he is with me and I will see him in Heaven one day. My Travis is a yellow butterfly that I see every day. He is watching over me and I am sure your son is watching over you. They will always be with us in our heart and never leave us. We will see them and just keep the faith that God has promised us. Love you Linda

GERI, I AM BETTER TODAY, BUT HATE THE THOUGHT OF STARTING ANOTHER YEAR WITHOUT MY PRECIOUS FALLON. I WILL START BACK TO WORK ON MONDAY SO HOPEFULLY THAT WILL HELP SOME TOO. AS ALWAYS THANK YOU FOR YOUR COMMENTS AND COMPLIMENTS ON FALLON'S BEAUTY. KEEP IN TOUCH. GOD BLESS YOU DURING THE NEW YEAR. FALLON'S MOM-- PEG

Dear Geri,
Although some time has passed since the loss of your son, I’d like to convey my deepest sympathies to you and your family. No matter how much time goes by, the pain and suffering never fully disappears since we’re not meant to die. It is of encouragement that you have faith in God even after this has happened to you and it’s also normal that you ask yourself “why did this happen to your only son?”
Many people, in trying to make you feel better, will tell you that God chose your son and took him to the heavens to be with him. However, would it be loving of God to take our children and loved family members knowing this would makes us suffer? No, it wouldn’t be loving because he knows what we go through and how we feel when someone we love dies. God himself lost his son, Jesus Christ, when he was sacrificed here on earth. Jehovah God knows what suffering it is to lose a son, he would never cause this to any of us. James 1: 13 says: “When under trial, let no one say: “I am being tried by God.” For with evil things God cannot be tried nor does he himself try anyone.” Instead, he sees death as our enemy and he will soon bring it to nothing as it reads in 1 Corinthians 15: 26.
Jehovah God has empowered his son, Jesus Christ, to resurrect those who have lost their lives. When Jesus was here on earth he gave proof of what he will do in the future. He resurrected many, even children and he promised: “Just as the Father raises the dead up and makes them alive, so the Son also makes those alive whom he wants to. Do not marvel at this, because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his [Jesus’] voice and come out.” (John 5: 21, 28, 29) Yes, Jesus has promised that millions now dead will live again on this earth under peaceful conditions. You can be sure that your son will be amongst those who will hear Jesus’ voice calling for him, and your son will come back to life.
I truly hope to have been of some help to you in these difficult times. Maintaining your faith in God and reading his word, the Bible, daily will strengthen your faith and will help you see that it was not God that took your son, instead he has a ‘yearning for the work of his hands’, his mankind creation, as it states in Job 14: 14, 15. If you’d like, you can email me to yanasmiles@yahoo.com.
Sincerely,
Ana

GERI, ON THE 23RD, I HAD A BIG BREAKDOWN AFTER GOING TO THE CEMETARY. IT WAS MUCH WORSE THAN LAST YEAR. CHRISTMAS EVE WAS A LITTLE BETTER, BUT CHRISTMAS DAY WAS JUST HORRIBLE. I HAD 30 PEOPLE AT MY HOUSE -- NEICES, ETC WHO WOULD BE FALLON'S AGE GROUP. THE MOOD WAS SO DEPRESSING THAT THE NEXT DAY MY HUSBAND AND I LEFT TOWN AND HAVE JUST RETURNED. WE HAVE DECIDED NOT TO DO ANOTHER CHRISTMAS AT HOME IF WE CAN POSSIBLY AVOID IT.
I'M TRYING NOT TO FOCUS TOO MUCH ON MY OWN GRIEF AND I APPRECIATE SO MUCH YOUR COMMENTS FOR ME. I PRAY THAT YOU ARE HEALING. THIS IS MY 4TH CHRISTMAS WITHOUT FALLON AND I AM STILL NOT WELL AND NEVER WILL BE. TIME HELPS SOME BUT THESE SNOWY DAYS THAT WE ARE HAVING IN OKLAHOMA ONLY ADD TO MY SOMBER MOOD.
MAY GOD GRANT BOTH OF US THE PEACE THAT WE SO DESPERATELY NEED DURING THIS APPROACING NEW YEAR. FALLON'S MOM---PEGGY

I HAVEN'T READ MY REPLIES I QUITE SOMETIME. I'VE BEEN WALLOWING IN MY GRIEF THIS HOLIDAY SEASON. THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS. PEG

Hi geri i am so sorry for the sudden depature of ur son Paul mijo left suddenly 5-3-08 at age 21- I say left suddenly because that is the only way i can think about what happened and i know i will see him again when it is my time to leave i do have other sons (2) and 2 daughters so i think it is harder for you both and i will pray that ur children will let u know that they are ok and in a peacful playfull place i took pics all year long "searching " for mijo and i think i "found him" in the pics i took please visit Marin Angel page and view all comments I hope the pics will comfort u as they do me Take care