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ITS NOW ALMOST 3 YEARS SINCE MY WIFE LEFT ME.IM MORE ALONE AND EMPTY NOW THEN EVER.LIFE IS EMPTY.THERAPY DIDN,T HELP, IM GOING TO BE 80 BUT MY MIND IS STILL 20.IVE BEEN THRU HELL AND CHEMO COULD NOT WALK FOR MONTHS ,AND IM STILL HERE AND MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE ISNT.WHY?I HAVE CHILDREN WHO ARE OF NO HELP AT ALL.AND LIVE 500 FEET FROM ME ,WHY> I GAVE THEM MY WHOLE LIFE,WHERE ARE THEY NOW?ALL I DO NOW IS TV ,EAT ,SWIM WHEN I CAN AND TAKE A DOZEN PILLS ,WHAT FOR?MY LIFE IS OVER,THE LONLINESS IS BEYOND ANYONE CAN IMAGINE.I HAVE A BIG HOUSE ONLY TO WALK THRU IT LOOKING FOR HER MEMORIES,IM A TUFF GUY WHO CRYS EVERY DAY, I TRY DRINKING BOOZE TILL I FALL ASLEEP WHICH I NEVER DRANK BEFORE. NOW ITS MOTHERS DAY AND ALL I THINK OF IS MY ELEANOR,I DON.T KNOW IF I CAN GO ON .I WISH THERE WAS A HAPPY PILL JUST TO GET THRU THE DAY. LONLINESS

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At 5:06pm on July 23, 2011, heather said…: I too am lonely I lost my husband 1 1/2 yrs ago and everyday is the same sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed. You and Elenore had a fantastic long marriage you were really lucky. I stay at home inside 24/7 on oxygen therapy for COPD I have no where to go and no personal friends. Kids, grandkids all seem too busy where I asked why don't you take me somewhere their reply well you are on oxygen. Loneliness is hard but remember God loves you he has a plan and you will see her again someday. Get enough rest eat well. You can writ to me any time ok? God Bless

At 11:53am on March 29, 2010, Carole said…: I am so sorry for your loss. I know words do not seem to help. I lost my Beau after 40 fabulous years to an awful disease. I have occasional good days now, and still losts of sad ones. But getting sleep is an important thing to keep your mind from going over the deep end. This I know from experience. Take care, sleep and get out and join something or do for others. It will help. Carole

At 12:01pm on March 12, 2010, ike saul said…: its going on 2 years and im still lost in space.after my wife passed on her birthday week,52 years of being with her was not enough i thought i would go first,i loved her so much,i just wish i could dream of her or even get a sign. still lost forever your husband.

At 9:45am on February 13, 2010, ike saul said…: HELP

At 9:41am on February 13, 2010, ike saul said…: Im still in therapy after 18months,there is not a day that goes by that my thoughts and prayers are with my wife and why did he take her from me and me not first the lonliness is beyond words and my family is less then help, what to do i dont no?