i just cant get over being jealous that God has my baby and I dont. I also had my tubes tied and that was my new husbands only lil girl and our only baby together. Someday when I can think of her and smile without tears I would like another baby with him not to replace her cuz nothing will do that but to honor her, is that an awful thing to want later?I mean even if we can get the money which is going to be hard enough I just wonder if that would be bad to want another baby after we lost her because I just need that connection that only a child of your own can give you. I just don't know what to do with myself because for 4months I changed you,feed you,played with you and best of all kissed and loved on you!My favorite was you always had to sleep first in my arms and I would gently rock you back and forth and as soon as I would lay you next to me you would pop those beautiful blues wide open and I would giggle and call you spoiled and I loved it and pick you up and do it again.Now what am I to do Jaysa?I don't have you to rock,kiss,play with,or feed,change and bathe.I'm lost without my baby girl.I should have went first and God knows that!!!
Jennifer nicole branscum's Blog
Posted on January 25, 2012 at 1:15am
I am Jennifer Branscum from Ky and me and my husband had a baby girl that he always wanted Jan15th 2011 and the she passed away from SIDS on May 15th 2011 the day she turned 4 months old and a year before that my sister had a premature son who came home and lived 36 days I did cpr om both my babies and it was so hard for me to realize that this had happened in our family twice.But before I get into that I got my tubes tied after I gave birth to our only child together and now to have my… Continue