I am sorry for your loss. I lost my 21 year old son to bullets fired by a coward seven months ago. I hear tell that it gets easier with time, for me so far it's gotten a little better in the sense that I don't cry all day long. I still cry every day though and I can't stop thinking about him from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. At times the pain is unbearable, at times it's bearable but still painful. Physically my body has taken a big hit. My face is broken out so badly I feel terrible being in public but what can I do. I sincerely hope that you find comfort. All you can do is try to be strong. My prayers are with you.