Today I sit at my computer and read and think of my past feelings since Nov 14th . That was the day my husband of forty five years died.I'm in a beavement supported be visiting nurse service. I went for a checkup about three months after my husband died and was given anti anxiety pills. My problems like others is to sleep and not wake up at 3.a.m. every night.I don't like to take the pills but after 2 or three days of no sleep I feel pain in my stomach,no energy.
By going to the support group I come to understand my physical and lack of sleeep is do to the grief process. But I understand my reactions when I feel I need to go home after visiting others for only an hour. I go once a week and look forward to the companionship of those in the same journey. I understand the "Triggers" of my emotional pain that makes me feel the way I do during the grief.I don't feel the closeness of my husband as others explained their hugs and dreams.Does anyone feel that they are missing the dreams and hugs of their loved one?