I am sorry to hear of your loss. When death separates family members, such great loss can result in deep sorrow. No doubt your family at this time is overwhelmed with great sadness as well. You need endurance and comfort at this time.
I have found it helpful to search out what God himself says. By using the Bible, a reliable source of hope, many have been comforted. Jehovah out of underserved kindness has opened up for billions who have died the priceless opportunity to enjoy eternal life here on earth. He has extended the hope that we will see our dead loved ones again on a paradise earth. Jesus said at John 5:28,29 "The hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out."
So when this earth is made into a Paradise, we will have the prospect of enjoying life without end, free from all sickness, disease and tragedy. (Psalms 37:9-11.29 and Revelation 21:4) It will be into such a cleansed earth that Jehovah God through Jesus Christ will resurrect the dead.
If your heart yearns to see your husband again, Jehovah's Witnesses will gladly assist you to learn how you can make this sure hope your very own. Why not contact them at a Kingdom Hall near you, or go to www.watchtower.org.

i know how you feel, i am so sorry for your loss, i almost lost the will to live myself. Your baby's smile and hope for tomoor will get you thru, i am here anytime you need.

mari

Kimmer,
I wish that I could tell you that things get better. I know what you are going through I still can not hear his voice or even remember how his kiss felt. I wonder alot if there is a life after this one as I think I have had only 3 dreams of him since his passing almost 5 months ago. People tell me all the time that he does'nt come to me because he knows how hard it would be for him to leave me again. I miss the way his heart sounded when I would lay my head on his chest. I miss the way his arm felt around me and how safe I felt. I miss the way he would hold my hand at night till we both went to sleep. When my baby first died I felt like I needed to go to the cementary every day like that was the only way I could be close to him. Now it is getting harder for me anyway to go out there. Every time I leave its like I am leaving another small part of whatever is left of me there. I have changed alot as a person since he has been gone and sometimes wonder if I have changed into a person that he would still love. I have found that I am a much less understanding person then I was before less compassionit then before. I want to look at people and tell them to suck it up and shut up when they start to complain about their lives its like do they not know what I am going thru do they not know how lucky they are? I am a much more angry then I was when he was here. He brought balance to me and to my life he was the one that was calm and could make me feel as if everything in this world was perfect. Now that is all gone. I don't know when or if this will ever get eaiser for either one of us. All I do know is that we are hurting and missing our souls. Hopefully we can get thru this together. You are in my thoughts all the time.
Till I hear from you again keep your head up cause that beautiful baby needs you.
Your Friend
Lisa

Kimmer,
I met my husband in March of 2005 it was love at first site. THe problem was that we were both married to other people at the time and I have children with my second husband and he has two older sons from his ex wife. He was the one to make the first move which was suprising to anyone who knew him. He was a quite gental man who seemed committed to his wife at the time. What no one knew was the hell that he was living in at the time. I fought like hell against the feelings I had for him until I could'nt fight anymore. We moved in together in October 2005. And were married November 2006. He was the best that a women could ask for. He needless to say spoiled me rotton as well as I did to him. It was October 2008 that we told that he had lung cancer. I was lucky enough to spend our 2 year wedding anniversary with him then I lost him 16 days after. I also knew that when we were told that he had the cancer that I was going to lose him all though everyone kept telling me no. But when you are connected with someone on that level you know. I just was not expecting it to be so soon after we found out. I was there when he passed and I got to tell him that I loved him and that we would be together for all eternity in the life after this. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. There are days that I cope ok I guess but there is not a day that I don't wish that I could just go and be with him. My children and grandchildren are what keep me going day to day. I also have a very supportive family. And then I found this page and it helps to know that there are other people out there that I can talk to and cry to that know where I am at. I to am glad that you wrote to me hopefully we can help each other in this dark journey that we have to face.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Write soon
God Bless
Lisa