Jerry Trujillo was my fiancee of 8yrs. He just took his life Jan. 23 through possibly Jan. 25, 2010. He was found On Jan. 27,2010. So I'm not too sure on the exact date of when he did this. We lived together all these years, and we were inseperable. However when he did this, I had been at my parents for a little over a week. When I found out, I felt as though my world would collapse. I never pictured my life without him, nor did I want to. He took care of his father for almost the last 2yrs of his dad's life. And when he lost his dad to Throat Cancer in 95' I believe his world changed. His father was his hero. We had many talks about how he felt that there was a better place. He truly believed that in his heart & his mind. I just didn't want to accept it. I'm dealing with this pain day by day. I just want to see him again. I pray that he is now resting and that God forgave him for him taking his own life. And I pray that he met up with his dad in heaven, or wherever he may be. He was thoughful, caring, handsome intelligent. I believed he had so much to offer this world, unfortunately he didn't believe so. He was my soulmate, my best friend, and the love of my life. When he left, he took a big part of me with him. I try not to be depressed, but I cannot help it at times. My family has been very supportive and loving. They just worry about me now. I feel in my heart that Jerry would want me to go on and live life. And I don't want his death to be in vain. I pray to God, and I live everyday waiting anxiously for the day that God re-unites us in the promised land. I feel like my priorities are so messed up at times, because when my time is done here on earth, I know I should be anxiously awaiting to meet our Lord and Saviour, (and I am) but honestly, I want to see Jerry. Please if someone can help me through this. They say time heals all, but I just want this life to be done so I can go with him.