Hi Melissa hope you are ok. but know we are not. It is just the sadness that makes life so different and we can't call them and hear their i love yous. which were so vital part of us feeling good. love to you at christmas and hope somehow we can find some peace somehow i don't know how but eventually maybe we will... carrie L
Hi Melissa, I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your brother one year ago, the loss of your mom before that and for the fact you did not get even a single word of support from any member of this community and I am included. Right early this month I could not open this website and sent e-mails to them to relate the issue. It took some days for me to be able to log on. Today going through all the discussions and groups I saw your comment and want you to know you are not alone, Melissa. God bless you. xxxx
It's been almost a year when my brother took his life, and I still have no idea how to deal with it, every day I think about him and my mom who passed away from cancer just three months before my brother died. It's really hard, he was the youngest of my mom. There was so much going on in his life that he couldn't take it any more. My son and his son was the ones that found him in the basement. That night before it all happened he gave me something because he said he was going to stop so he could get a better job, so we had no idea what was going to happen, he even asked me to come to dinner but I already ate. Then my son calls me at midnight telling me my brother was dead, and I didn't believe hem till we got there and saw the medics there and I asked his wife if he took his own life and she told me he did. He always called me when things was getting bad and talked about it, but this time he didn't. I really wish he would have and maybe he would still be here. I always was able to talk him down and make him feel better. he left behind two boys one is 15 and the other is 9. the 9 year old was the one that found him. I miss him so much, he was my bestfriend. I miss the cook outs and just visiting for the day. I know people tell me things will get better, but how when it was so sudden and he was young, well in his 30's but it was still to young. Losing two people close to you with in a few months of eachother is very hard to deal with. Every one don't see the pain I'm in I hide it well. I try to talk about it to help, but it makess it worse. I miss him so much, and I miss my mom just as much, It's just with her we knew it was coming, with him we didn't, so it makes it harder.