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Posted on October 17, 2009 at 9:23pm 0 Comments 0 Likes

mom why did you leave me that day? i thought that time went by id be fine, but i was a fool to think that way. who am i without you? i don't even know, it scares me to think of what direction i will go. without your guidance and without your love i am a ticking time bomb. i don't know if the decisions i make are right or if there wrong.i made you such a big part of me and now i don't know who to be.i wish i could talk to you one more time and ask you what to do, but I'm stuck here without you.… Continue

you were my best friend

Posted on October 17, 2009 at 9:22pm 0 Comments 0 Likes

U were my mother and my best friend now ur gone for good u were so complicated and so misunderstood. I know the burden u carried was heavy but now u passed it down 2 me all ur unhappy feelings and all us misery. Now im left with all these questions the hows and the whys i must accept the fact u chose 2 die. I dont know what made u do it maybe 2 much pride i just wish u would have stuck it out long enough 2 c me b a bride. Oh how i miss u mom these tears i cant control u will never get 2 c my… Continue

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At 8:47pm on September 26, 2013, Chelle said…: Hello Michelle just checking to see how you were I apologize it's been so long. Hope to hear from you soon!

Sincerely,
Tatianna

John 5:28,29 "All those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice...and come out!"

At 7:45pm on May 10, 2013, Cathy Cooper said…: Thinking of you Michelle on Mother's Day Weekend and I wish I had stayed in touch! Hugs to you! Cathy Cooper

At 8:19pm on September 28, 2011, Heather J. Crawford-Strout said…: You are all the best parts of your mom...don't every forget it!!!I look into my daughters eyes and think, they are the best of me and their dads. Love never ends it is eternal...

Bless you and yours sweetheart

(((hugs))))

At 11:36am on May 17, 2011, Chelle said…: Hi Miss Michelle,

I feel like it has been SO long since I have spoken to you. Hope you are as well as you can be for now. Thinking of you always-in my prayers-take care

Hope to hear from you soon.

At 1:46pm on January 19, 2010, Terry H. said…: Hi Michelle, its is awesome the love you have for your mom - all we can do is to continue to love and not shut down - My hope for you is that you do heal but not forget your mother - Love is so powerful - so continue to love yourself in the actions you do and it will help you get thru

At 10:11pm on January 18, 2010, Jenn said…: Hi Michelle, how are you doing? I saw you posted a hello on my page and asked me to stay in touch. I haven't been in this website for a while. How are things going?

At 10:28am on January 6, 2010, Katherine said…: That is true. All you can do is keep their spirit alive. I am now going through a rollercoaster again as I jest got engaged about a month ago and would have had my Dad walk me down the aisle but now that he is gone I'm going to ask my little brother. He is my only other full blood sibling and he looks just like a younger version of my dad.

Well, I hope the New Year brings you new promise and I hope that your struggle lessens with each day that passes. And, dont forget to tell yourself to "just keep swimming"!

At 8:54pm on December 31, 2009, Chelle said…: My grandfather commited suicide i was in 6th grade. I had never met him in my life... I remember my dads reaction to it though..

At 7:24am on December 31, 2009, Dan Boylan said…: Michelle,
Thank you for your kind words and know you are not alone with your feelings but Know that you can survive, even if you feel you can't.Intense feelings of grief can be overwhelming and frightening. This is normal. You are not going crazy; you're grieving. Grieving takes so much energy that other things may fade in importance. sometimes even your Husband and children take second place to the overwelming feelings of grief. For a time mine own kids took second place . Not to mention my Job.
some days even now I just feel like staying in bed. But as they said "life goes on " Keep asking "why" until you no longer need to ask.Healing takes time. Allow yourself the time you need to grieve. Take care and keep in touch
Dan

At 12:14pm on October 28, 2009, Cathy Cooper said…: Hi Michelle,I have had depression for most of my life and have attempted suicide before. But I have kids now and would not want them to feel like you do right now. I am so sorry for your loss and can feel your pain through your words here! I would like to to get help. I would like you to join a group and possibly get on medication until some of this pain passes. I don't know if it will ever go away. But think of the medicine you may be on as a treatment like for any illness, like diabetes or a heart condition.
I am on a natural remedy called Mood Positive by Natrol. It has 5 htp, B vitamins and amino acids in it and it helps me.
I also went back to exercising. It lifts my spirit a bit. My Dad just died on October 3rd. He did not commit suicide but he is gone. I read a good help guide called " The Mourning Handbook" It helped me.
I would grab anything and everything except alcohol or illegal drugs to help you.
I am so sorry that this has happened to you.
I have been so down and out that I have tried the out your Mom chose. Please take care of yourself.
Let me know if you want to talk!