Hi Nancy - I lost my husband in early September. My emotions still careen around. I'd say good days and bad days, but sometimes it's more like good hours and bad hours. Tears, anger, despair, panic... they're all there. I know Steve would want me to keep moving forward, and I try, but it's painful. I'm functioning - working, taking care of the house, taking care of things related to his death, getting together with friends and family - but hurting inside all the time. You're not alone, and I hope this site helps you as it's helped me. Take care of yourself.
Nancy, your loss is so new that you will be feeling everything. Even those of us into months now still have confusing times. I can just be sitting here and a thought will suddenly cross my mind I think Bill would enjoy hearing about and when I realize he isn't sitting here next to me to share, here come the tears. A word, a song, anything that brings on reminders. Let the tears flow. It's okay. We must have happy moments and memories to stay sane so thats okay too. Take care and know that we are here for you. Hugs
Hi Nancy, Like you I am also trying to stay busy. I am really trying to get better because i also know that my husband would want me to be strong and go on without him. I have good days and when I do usually by the end of the day I am feeling guilty for it. I know it sound weird but I just can't help it. Then I have days when the least little thing brings on the tears. Work does seem to be getting better I seem to be able to concentrate more on what I am doing. I just ask God every day for the strength to make it through another day without Waymon. I do dread the holidays coming up but am trying to put them in the back of my mind for now. May God bless you and give you strength also.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is still a very fresh loss and I'm sure your emotions are running rampant. Losing a husband is especially hard when you have to then deal with loneliness also. The days when you are calm probably occur because your mind needs a break and this is really a form of self-preservation. I realize now that I wouldn't have come through my loss with any sanity, if my emotions didn't shut down occasionally. Don't rush through this. Be kind and patient with yourself. My thoughts are with you.
I am going on 7 weeks and and i also am trying to accept the fact that I will never see him again this side of Heaven. Sometimes it seems as if it were just yesterday and others seems like forever. But i am trying and asking God for strength each and everyday. I don't think you are too old we have quite a few subs that age at our school. I hope you give it a try. I am always here to listen anytime you need me. May God bless you.
I used to be a substitute teacher and now work in the school office. Substitute teaching is great because if you do elementary children they are sweet and loving also it is a job you only have to go to when you feel like going. I really enjoyed it when I was doing it. I agree the crying seems to just come and go.
Some days I might not cry at all and others I can just think of him and the tears will come no matter where I am. I do believe that crying is good and helps relieve the pain and tension. Usually when the tears have stopped I do feel a little better. Hugs to you.
Hi Nancy, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I agree you probably are just so exhausted that your body has to rest. I am so blessed to have my daughter with me so I don't have to come home to an empty house. I just imagine that is one of the hardest things that there is to do. I really do believe that a job would help you. My job keeps my mind busy and at least there are people there so it is not so lonesome during the day. I hope God will bring you some comfort and I will keep you in my prayers.
Dear Nancy, I do understand how you are feeling. Just the least little thing will cause the tears to flow. When I am thinking about him my heart is breaking. If I don't think of him then like you I feel guilty because I think that all my thoughts should be of him. I am glad I have my job because sometimes it really does occupy my mind for a while. i am praying that God will give us both the strength we need to face the days ahead.
Nancy, I am so sorry for your loss. I sometimes just hold his pillow and cry after I go to bed. I also go to the cemetery and talk to him. Usually I have a good cry while I am there, ask God for strength and then feel a little better. I work so I do agree that getting a job would be good for you. It does make the time go faster and keeps your mind busy. Please feel free to talk anytime I am always ready to listen