Dear Pam,

I just read your letter on legacy about your sister dying of a drug overdose. I also have lost my Baby sister Niki 32, to an accidently overdose. I have never experienced losing a sibling, and the pain is the worst thing I have ever felt. Our Mother passed away 7 years ago and that was bad. She was my Best Friend, but her death was expected and I miss her all the time. But my sisters death has been so hard. I never thought this would ever happen to her. The thing that makes me angry is, my sister knew how it broke my heart when my son got addicted to pills and it tore our family up. But Thank God after 4 times at rehab, he is finally clean..It took a few years but he finally did it. And as a parent I felt guilty that my son had a addiction problem, I had never dealt with that in our family...My Sister Niki knew how I felt about pills and we talked and the many times I cried about my son. And then out of the clear blue. I get a call August 24, 2009, that my sister had died. The reason she died just haunts me, I had no idea she was doing those things and my heart is so broken. She was only 32 and a Mother to a 5 year old boy. My nephew is now being raised by his father, even though there were not married. So now my Nephew is being raised by his father that was hardly ever there for him. And my family has always been there for my nephew, but we could not have him and there is a terrible void there. My cousin keeps telling me don't put him in the same category as Niki, because Christian is still alive. But I somehow feel guilty because I sent my sister money the night she died, and I wonder if the money I sent contributed to her death..Five hours after I sent her money she had passed away. I just feel so so Sad..

Wendy