Be easy on yourself & take everything one step at a time. There are people out there who know what you've experienced. It's been over a year & I was fortunate to have met someone in a similar situation. The loss of our partners, albeit different circumstances & different times, is what brought us together. We're sharing our lives by also including the spirit and love of our former partners. The wound never totally heals but think how your partner would want you to live and experience for her some of your dreams. Hope this message brings you a bit of comfort in your time of grieving.