My younger brother committed suicide in November. I found him. He had shot himself in the head. it is still hard to believe and I sometimes wonder if it will ever sink in. I don't understand what happened. He was living and telling lies. I depended on him to take care of my parents & now he's not here. I am doing the best I can to help my parents, but it is hard to deal with. I just don't know how to accept it and go on with my life. How do you ever understand?