Thank you it's been awhile since I have been online. Seems life is so hard without my Husband. We were together 38 years.

Hi Rodger, I just was reading some of your posts with David. He's a great guy and posts many photos of flowers on the man page that I am a member; loss of a child. I lost my only child a son who was taken from all who love him by a drunk driver. Come on and just say hello to members and read their posts. You will feel better.

I also lost my mother last year and half ago Nov 19, 2012.

I don't know if you like television or if you believe in God. If you watch television and believe in God I can recommend something to help you to feel better. And even if you don't then what the heck turn on television next Sunday in the morning. I'm not sure on the time but I do believe on channel 5 at 9am and then on channel 9 at 9:30am you can tune into see and listen to Joel Osteen. He's from Texas and he is a preacher. He tells personal stories and is very inspirational, encouraging, funny sometimes and uplifting. Today he said that every day we should ask God to anoint us to do something such as how we feel physically or mentally. After you watch him you will feel better I promise. He sometimes says I believe and declare that God has ........ I say that out loud for the pain in my knees to go away and I put my hand on my knee and say I believe and declare the pain is gone and I am healed. It makes me feel better even if I'm not totally healed from this osteoarthritis; I have bone on bone but getting hyalgan injections. I keep moving forward with all the garbage that has been in my life. Good Luck Rodger and give it a try watch Joel Osteen. In fact you can go on the computer just put in his name it should come up to check it out.

It's late I need to take my medication.

Barbara

Roger, I think you should call your son and point out that you would really appreciate seeing your grandchildren for Easter. Maybe he would drive you and them to church, or to a nice park for an hour or so? Failing his understanding, is there anyone who would drive you there to see them for an hour, on one of the days over the Easter weekend?

Hope it works out. Life is too short, but one of my daughters is also not very friendly, so I do understand. I tried to help her find a holiday place, got a really nice one, and also got into a whole lot of trouble.

You are not alone. Your Ma is right there with you. Happy Easter.

Roger, I get up each day and look after the dogs and the garden. Just noticed, today is bright and sunny, so will probably get Lucky washed in the drive. They are so loving, follow me nearly everywhere ....... Sat with Bernie's ashes last night, at the time he died. Always try to do that on the 3rd of every month, the day he died.

Hope you are getting stronger. Remember to tell the kids that Easter is the biggest day in Christendom, more important than Christmas, the day that Christ rose from the dead. Mostly they should realise that it is not just a day for presents, bunnies, chocolate, etc. except that is how a lot of people celebrate it.

Be brave, Roger.

Roger, thanks for the invitation. Hope you have a better feeling about where your mother and stepson are. I had a vision of my son Bernie sitting just inside a door of a large palace, surrounded by other spirits, looking a bit awed but smiling, handsome and happy. In another dream he was taking me up a huge flight of stone steps, towards the exit. I wanted to stay but had the feeling he knew I had to go ....... I pray every night for him, but have a relieved feeling of having handed him over to the tender mercies of the Good Lord and His Blessed Mother.

What is your handicap?  Mine is, of course, being quite old and living without the company of my son.  Others may give lip service to 'being there for you', but don't care as much. That woman Shirley, who just came on, lost two daughters in the space of one year! Brave girl!

The link appears to be blue, i.e. interactive, so you might be able to just click on it to see the article on the CNN page. Best wishes, David.

This is a better link I believe, from the Anderson Cooper programme on CNN which showed Dr. Neal and two other people who had similar experiences : http://edition.cnn.com/2013/11/29/us/to-heaven-and-back/

Hope you able to copy-and-paste it into your search box.

Roger, I lost my son twenty-eight months ago, and I can only go by what those three people wrote in 'Heaven and Back' or some such title ... evidently everyone they met or saw was happy, glowing, enjoying their time with the Lord. Certainly no one was cold or miserable, which reassures me greatly for my son. Bernie was quiet and modest, happy with his simple house, his dogs, his garden, and whatever life gave him. 

Please be reassured that your mother  and stepson are much better off than we are, happy with the Good Lord, and will meet and greet you one day when it is your time to go.

Sorry you are so depressed. You live in a nice part of the country?  And what about your stepson, does he help you?  Talking with other people on here should help you to have some perspective on your life, Roger.

David.