I just joined the group and I was glancing through the member list to see who lived nearby me. I lost my husband in April 2009 at 41 years old. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. If you'd ever like to talk, I'm offering a listening ear. Though you have a close friend who also is dealing with grief and you have each other to talk to, it isn't the same grief process. I learned that with suicide there is a whole new component involved. That is the feeling of abandonment, which I had never thought about. I only recently learned that my youngest son, who I began taking to counseling after he showed signs of depression following the loss of his father, attended weekly for a little over a year, was seeing a counselor that never even addressed the grief my son was experiencing. That was only after he revealed to me that he was being sexually abused. I immediately returned to the previous counselor since she knew him. After 2 sessions I scheduled my own appointment with her and she took it upon herself to invite my son and daughter to join me and spent my hour talking to my daughter. I was furious and after talking to the kids about how I felt about that, my son said she has never addressed his issues and all she talks about is school and him working and earning money, he just turned 14. He's a child and shouldn't have to worry about a job for a few years. School IS his job until he graduates. If he chooses to have a car when he's in school, he will get a job at that point. Anyway, it is good to see someone from nearby. Don't hesitate to contact me if you want to talk.