Dearest Suzann, My heart goes out to you as I know how you feel...its like your in a dream and cant really accept what has taken place, when you do realize that he is not coming back the pain is so great like no other you have ever experienced...The times that you are free of housework and stuff and think of your bro is the most painful..Nighttime is the worst of all. We go through that everyday as we lost our brother and it will be 1yr on the 1st of Jan. He was just 35yrs old.My only bro who is one year younger than me. I have a sister who is 5yrs younger to me.We cant believe that it happened to us...we always think that it happens to others and would never think that it could be us crying... Its good for you to talk about him and about how you feel... We have only the memories with us and that too is a comfort. Everytime, i feel sad and down I ask God to give me the strength to think of him and all our happy times together and to be thankfulfor the 35yrs with us and now that he has escaped this sinful world before us and that he has the Peace and joy that we sometimes dont have in this busy world. It may help you a bit if you try to look at it like that... You have to be there for his daughter. Tell her how wonderful her father was and all the stories about you both that only you will know.. she needs to know all this as she gets older... Be strong Suzann, he will want that from you. Will keep you in my prayers.. Write to me if you ever want to talk about it. my e mail is joanne_a72@yahoo.com God bless you. Lots of love.