Please accept my condolences on the tragic loss of your precious son Shannon. Oh he has such a nice friendly warm smile. I lost my only child/son Joe when he was taken by a drunk driver going on 5 years ago this April 5th. Come over to loss of a child and express your feelings. People will respond to your post. I understand what you're saying and everyone on loss of a child can identify with your feelings. The pain is normal physically and mentally. I recall at the beginning how I would spend all day thinking of Joe when I'd go to sleep (when I was able to sleep and when I woke up. It's heart wrenching even now. I continued doing the things I did before the tragedy in my life. It helped me to concentrate but the tears never stopped. I don't cry as I did before but never know when something touches me and the tears flow down my cheeks.