I am so sorry for the loss of you son. I lost my son, Joey, to suicide on June 20, 2008. That Friday afternoon when I found out he had died, I thought I would die of pain from a broken heart. No one is prepared for such a tremendous loss in their life. Our children are supposed to bury their parents, not the other way around. Feel free to rant, cry, or share with the people you meet on this site. I am a new member, and I have encountered some very nice and caring people. We are all here for the same reason. We absolutely do know what you are going through at this moment, especially other moms like me. Love and hugs to you.