I share your pain. Last August my youngest of 3 daughters died of cancer. I didn't realize what devastation felt like til then. She was my best friend, tall, beautiful, and smart. She loved life and made the most of it. This past March my oldest daughter died of cancer also. There are no words to express my feelings and I can certainly sympathize with what you are going through. My surviving daughter (who is also feeling great pain) gave me on my last birthday, an angel who stands in my patio. We call her our "own personal angel" representing Linda & Lisa. I hope it gets easier for both of us in time.