My bother mike would have been 40 today. its almost been 8 years since he died. its still so hard. this bday is a little harder. maybe because he didn't see 40. i still so hard. less gut wrenching, but so hard. i miss my brother

Many memories and thanks to my dear father who died 2012 and has his birthday January 31.  I miss him so much as he always protected me.

love

Irene

We live in a world where everything seem to be going faster then yesterday.  The old year out  - The New Year in.  Some of our love ones are still here.  This is the time to let our love one know - just how much we really love them. 

In a world filled with so much turmoil and confusion - we can come to appreciate loving those who mean so much to us.  Loving them now while we still have them near us.  We all yearn for those who have left this life and left  us with so many beautiful…

I am finding the 2nd year after my husband's death to be significantly worse. I guess I was in shock. Busy with insurance and wills and bills left me little time to feel things. I also was in griefshare but when I returned to TX my griefshare was no longer available and others just weren't at convenient times. 

I have narrowed down the biggest problem. My husband's physical condition when he had his accident was horrible. So as quality of life goes - I knew he was in a better…

Hello not sure where to start lost my soul mate 6 weeks ago and everything is a blur

 any advice is welcome

No matter how hard we try, we have not been able to escape the effects of aging and death.  The question that many may wonder is - "Is This Life All There is?"  

As I have often stated, life is a beautiful gift from our Heavenly Father - however, this life is not all there is for mankind. Our Heavenly Father have provided a way for mankind to reach out to him and to worship him.  Through one's worship, one will come to learn of the beautiful promise recorded at "Revelation…

Life as we know it - is truly a gift from God!  How we use that gift is a personal choice and decision.   Absent of life is death - which will in time befall us all.  When we lose our loved one to death - the pain is one which can't be compared to any other emotional pain or hurt.  It pull at the innermost cord of our emotions and stir up a sense of emotional lost.  

However, death, is not the end of it all.  We are promised a time where all of the pain and suffering of today will…

When we loose a love one - how beautiful it is to know that we can reflect and cherish those memories that brings a smile to our face.  The gift can replay itself over and over again; we laugh, we cry, and we rest for those thoughts that goes back to the days when our love one was there by our side.  How, I miss my Dad....but I often replay the memories of a younger father - with energy and spunk.  His wise counsel that aided me in making wiser decisions.  

Life as we know it now is…

I've had a lot more healing to do since 2014, when I first found Legacy Connect. I've been busy working with other survivors of suicide loss, writing about survival, connection, and hope and creating/updating the website that is right for me.

Now seems like the time to come back here. I still miss my husband, who ended his life in 2007 after a valiant battle with depression and bipolar disorder. We were married for over thirty years. But he is still part of my life. He made that kind…

The month has been beautiful in the mountains. No need for a/c - just open a window at night. This year I have been joined by my best friend James. He loves NC as much as I do. Is having trouble finding a job - overqualified for everything. Have had some problems with the dogs running away-- again. I guess all the wildlife here is irresistible. I will post a new picture of the puppy - he is bigger than my german spitz already. Charles and Steve - hope your anniversary was wonderful.…

Soon be 6 months.  This site gives me a place to unload with people I don't know.  It has been healing for me. 

In just 3 weeks, 2 neighbors have died.  Lat night it was a teen in an auto accident.  I will be here for his mom.  I will be saying those soothing comments I have read on this site.  I will help as I feel lead to do, but won't attend the funeral.  I think it will set me back.  Pray for my strength as I comfort someone who has gone through a horrible loss.

My husband enjoyed a good laugh. I was thinking how much I missed his happy, blue eyes. Sometimes when I talk to him at night, I hold a teddy bear he had as a young truck driver, but Jingles has no eyes. Lo and behold, on an errand, I found a bag of google eyes!!!! I colored them blue, and glued them on the teddy bear. Big eyes, big bright movable eyes. I can not help but to laugh out loud when I come into the bed room. The bear represents him. Just like him, it made me laugh. Have a good…

Here I am again reflecting. Thank God I have a full life, but yet, I don't feel complete. A huge part of me left 5 months ago. Although I continue some of the things we did, those moments are bittersweet. I have him in my thoughts, but long for his physical presence.

As I let go of some of the pain, I try to make room for others who were not as blessed as I to have had a partner that enjoyed going out and doing simple, and not expensive things. This week, I heard a woman say she had…

Ain't no mountain I can't climb. The evenings and early mornings I enjoy the birds, especially the ones who like to do a nightly choral for me at my reflection, prayer time. Caught myself singing a lot yesterday. My soul doth magnify the Lord.

After 7 years and what still feels like a long road my dad dropped new information on me today about my brothers death. He let me know that he had his eyes roll back to white while conscious 2 days before he had his seizure . 2 days later he died from seizure. He didn't take him to the hospital the first time. He is now telling me this 7 years later. Neither of my parents told me about this . I could have maybe helped. While I know there is no turning back I feel so many strong emotions…

How to live after breaking up with your loved one? Difficult, sad, lonely. You as if something is missing. First of all - air. Tears overwhelm, heart smiles, emotions are bred. But you need to live on. Sometimes it is very difficult, but it is necessary.…

Frankie, you should be used to making coffee in the morning.  It is a minor thing and he did it so well.  He would laugh today and remind you to not forget to put the grounds in.  He knew you had brain fog in the mornings.  He is hugging you from heaven with a twinkle in his eyes.

Dear Frankie, Remember to put on your muscle rub cream  before you cry in the morning.  Wash your hands before you drop those tears and touch your eyes.  Well, it did refocus your thoughts.  

My husband's health notably got worse after a stroke about a year ago.  Although his life was spared for a while, it was obvious to both of us - although not discussed much - that he probably would not out-live me.  I had dealt with being a widow before.  He had been a widow and one day we came up with the idea of Huggy.  Near Valentine's day he bought me a huge stuffed Monkey and we named it Huggy.  Frequently he or I would hug the monkey.  The monkey was to…

     Second time around, just as painful, but maybe more hopefull.  I have past the third month and have not quite shelved my grief, tears come frequently and I still find it hard to talk much about him.  Went to a local festival yesterday and missed holding his hand.

     I have kept busy.  Over the  spring break I actually read and enjoyed a book, The Dutch Wife.   …