This is my 3rd. Christmas without my son. The pain never goes away it becomes different. This year I did my usual December things @ the grave: solar powered wreath, A lady I work with was kind enough to set up Kenny's grave candles ( I HAD TO WORK:( )

Attended the gravesites annual Candle lighting ..very late and I did my regular visits. I also layed a new hotwheels tractor @ his stone. Kenny loved the dirt he even grew up and became certified in Heavy Equipment operating. I guess I…