My dearest Cody, You left us four months ago today. The pain is as heavy today as it was that day.  I’m holding strong to my faith and I’m praying every day. I’ll never know why and I will never understand. I sure hope you knew mommy loved you the most. My heart will never be the same without you here. I’m trying real hard to learn how to live my new life without you in it. Some days the pain is just too much to bear.  You will forever be loved and missed not only by me but so many people. I…