On January 19th, 2011 I lost my sister in a very sudden death.  It was completely unexpected.  I find that I still have so much trouble sleeping at night.  Any moments not spent working I think about the horrible things she must have endured right before she died.  I try to spend as much time with my parents as I can because they are dying inside.  I have siblings that are also grieving so very much.  I find that I don't talk to them as much because I know they have enough to deal with.  I look… Continue