this is how long its been since I have been able to speak with the man of my dreams. I cant help but wonder how I get any better when everything in my life good or bad was discussed with him. we never went a day in 16 years that we didn't speak and now every day and night I spend in tears. I almost wish he wasn't so great so I could have something to look back at and be angry with but he was a perfect human being. now going trough his thing and packing myself up to move out of state in 6…

my hopes of sharing on here is to connect with others who have lost. for me I lost the love of my life to a 5 month battle from pancreatic cancer, he was only 52. although we had 15 wonderful years together I wish everyday he was still here he passed away on July 6th the very day we met. he was kind and loving and we had only 1 argument in all that time. every second with him was pure joy. I was able to spend every minute these last 5 months by his side. He had many stays in the hospital and…